butter chicken save me

[brutalbunny]

today started off bad and ended up...!? fine?! it often turns out like that, i think
the zipper to my hoodie broke off (it was giving me grief already, so it's expected, but ARGH)
(also i can probably replace it but ARGH)
(it just occured to me that hand-sewing a zipper would be a massive pain in the ass and i don't know how to use a sewing machine, ARGH)
and, also, i have this little bear-shaped tape measure that i kept on my carabiner, and it just like,
exploded
?!

ALSO, banking issues. i think i messed up my direct deposit info, so i got a paper check again.
and my bank does mobile deposits for checks, but will hold it up to 10 business days because "mobile check deposits have a high rate of fraud"...
so i need to go in person, BUT THE BANKS CLOSE AT 5, OBVIOUSLY, or go to an atm, which i'm not entirely convinced it'll be quicker but
ARGH
MY MONEY 
😭

...
it is a sizeable paycheck though.
LOL
once i get my direct deposit fixed i don't think i'll be complaining. this rules
work was fine, and i felt better once i got some quiet zoning out time.
when the weather warms up and i can go back to riding the bus, not having to rush around all the time...
im sure i'll have something else to complain about. LMAO

i started sculpting something a day or two ago! it's a gligar!!
right now it's only a head.......... but it's so cute i love gligar it's so cute gligar is my favorite ever wiwi.
i also got a container to hold my excess beads in. and some cute stickers to decorate that container. :3
and i'm waiting for another order of beads.. bc... i ran out of a color immediately, again. 😭

tonight i went to an anti-ice town hall that was being held nearby...
i stopped in for a little bit, but i was really, really tired, and in my winter clothes and it was hot as fuck in there.
the person who was fielding questions for the police force disappointed everyone. (shocker)
and i got a zine and a whistle and some signs to hang up....
>_<
it's really scary. but i think what's scariest of all, and this is really selfish of me, but i'm mostly scared that i'd be too scared to help someone in the moment.
does that make sense? i'm worried i'll freeze up, not know how to help, or not realize something bad is happening, something like that...
it's all scary but it's scarier for the people who are truly at risk of being stolen, or worse. argh
what a Day. i am so tired. goodnight foreva

Comments

[pattrose]

I worry about politics all the time. I think it’s great that you went to the meeting. It’s too bad it wasn’t more helpful. Don’t worry so much about if you’d actually help someone. I believe you would help or you would not be worried. You’ve seen what happens to people who help and it’s fucking scary. I feel so badly for these people. Being afraid all the time. In Tucson we’ve had ICE here for a month now. They shot someone the other week. Everyone is worried. Sleep well tonight. I hope. Tomorrow is a great day.

[brutalbunny]

thank you 🥺 ugh i hope ice leaves your area soon, those monsters.
there hasn't been heavy activity in my city yet, i don't think, but we're all expecting it.
hopefully that means our community will be ready to protect each other when the time comes, at least!

(and today was definitely better for me! i hope you had a nice day as well! ^_^)

[pattrose]

Today was a super day. No complaints.

[lucy_roman]

I too really hate it when a zip breaks. Maybe you could find someone to fix the zipper for you.

[autobotscoutriella]

YAY GLIGAR! Your craft posts are inspiring me to go paint that wooden shark I've had in my apartment for weeks now. (Ask me later if I did it, I'm still technically at work and shouldn't be painting sharks...)

Hand-sewing zippers IS a massive pain in the ass. It's easier on a hoodie than a jacket though usually...

(And if it helps, as somebody who's been doing the USPol-adjacent stuff for a while, it's always scary but it does get easier! Sometimes you freeze, but then the next time you don't, sometimes you don't realize until someone else steps in, but then the next time you do. Being willing to step up at all goes a long way.)

[brutalbunny]

arghh i wish we could just have a craft day together at this point LOL like im going to come to your house with my clay and various beads and we will have fun. alas.........the distance

(i appreciate it, that definitely helps as a reminder 😭 honestly, there will be a next time, huh?! i always imagine it as One Scenario but that's just foolish... like, no one was a perfect activist the first time they intervened..........)

[autobotscoutriella]

alas....the distance!!! maybe one day 😭

(absolutely! Nobody was born good at this...it's too bad that we have to get good at it but it absolutely does get easier with practice.)